Looking back to when I heard the saying “the friends you meet in college are the friends for life”, I had always thought I was fortunate enough to meet my “friends for life” in high school. I thought we were an unstoppable, unbreakable team; we had gone through so much together, grew up together, and bonded over so much. But I might’ve been wrong.
I’ve met these friends. They’re these incredible three people. One knows me and understands me like no other, another has gone through thick and thin with me, and the last had been there through everything.
My first friend:
He was the first person I met who understood some things no one else would get. He was the first person who listened to me like he did, cared for me, took care of me. The way we watched over each other, the way we connected and bonded, the way we joked around and enjoyed life with each other. I will never forget the late night phone calls that consisted of both hours of joking around and hours of deep conversation. I will never forget the days we escaped from life, from the drama around us, from everything. I will never forget those deep brown eyes, that smile. I will never forget him. I will be waiting for him to come back to me.
My second friend:
She was the first friend who was close to me that was a girl. It wasn’t because I was sexist, but I just got along with the boys better. She was one of the only close girl friends I had. She always wished to help me and tried her best to whenever she could. She respected me unconditionally. She believed in me. The way we talked, the way we went to each other for things, the way we got along. I will never forget the conversations we had. I will never forget those worried eyes that looked up to me. I will never forget how we “mother”ed each other. I will never forget her. I will be looking forward to going back to her when I’m more okay, when I’ve found myself.
My third friend:
He was the first friend who put more effort into me when I was in a dark time. He was the first friend who had gone through so much with me and yet still is by my side. The way we weren’t afraid to say the truth to each other, the way we talked and got along, the way we fought. I will never forget all the drama we went through. I will never forget how much pain we went through. I will never forget all the things that were said and promises that were kept. I will never forget all the weird conversations and the random topics. I will be looking forward to hearing from him later on.
We might drift apart now. We might stop being friends for a while. We might not talk for some time. But I know we’ll come back together no matter what. But I know we’ll be okay later on. But I know we’ll always have each other.
You give me my strength to push forward.
You give me my courage to take risks.
You give me encouragement to continue on.
You give me support to follow my heart.
You are there to hold me whenever I’m breaking apart.
You are there to calm me down when I’m emotional.
You are there to keep me in check when I’m slipping.
You are there to love me when I can’t love myself.
You always reassure me when I have my doubts.
You always protect me when I feel unsafe.
You always remind me when I have lost sight of light.
You always take care of me when I honestly don’t want to.
You make me smile when I don’t want to breathe.
You make me laugh when I’m drowning in tears.
You make me take a step back and think when I am overwhelmed.
You make me feel when I am dead inside.
You encourage me to always follow my heart and chase my dreams.
You encourage me to believe in myself and do my own thing.
You encourage me to speak up and say what’s on my mind.
You encourage me to try and be okay…to not give up.
You protect me from my nightmares.
You protect me from everyone…elsewhere.
You protect me from my doubts, fears, and self-punishment.
You protect me from…MYSELF.
You remind me that I’m never alone anymore.
You remind me that I am loved.
You remind me that I can be beautiful.
You remind me that I am wanted and needed.
You remind me that…you love me…unconditionally.
I will never forget you. I will never forget us.
You see me go through thick and thin. You see me stressed, happy, and nervous. You hear of my struggles, my phases, my mood swings. You hear of my pain, my hurt, my sorrow. And you’re always there for me through it all.
You probably don’t know this, but you are apart of that little light that I still see in my life. Your bubbly happiness causes colors to reform into my eyes when all I see are the darkened shades of pain. Your ability to see hope where I think all is lost brings a new meaning to my darkened pain. You probably don’t know this, but you do a lot more for me than you give yourself credit for.
You’ve listened to me when I am down. You’ve comforted me when I was nervous or doubtful. You’ve reassured me when I was scared and full of fear. You’ve been there through all the emotions I’ve allowed myself to feel, without a single spec of judgement in the air.
You’ve seen me when I was down. You’ve seen me when I was happy. You’ve experienced what it was like to see me cry, see me full of joy, see me full of pain. You’ve seen me when I was nervous. You’ve seen me when I was trying not to be angry.
You’ve watched me fall in love. You’ve watched me get my heart torn apart. You’ve watched me chase after my dreams. You’ve watched me hide in a corner full of doubts and fears.
You’ve been there for me through so much. You’ve seen different sides of me that not many others get to see, or even know exist. Yet you love me either way. You’ve seen all the sides of me that are good. You’ve seen that part of me.
Thank you for loving me. Thank you for being there for me. Thank you for walking through it all with me. Thank you for your attempts of picking me up when I fall. Thank you, for being you. You do a lot more than you give yourself credit for. Just keep being you.